Associating people from other countries

Hi! How are you doing?

I am doing fine!

We are having such a wonderful sunny day despite we are in the rainy season =D.

Since I have been helping people outside

to buy stuffs from Japan for 7 years

mostly people of  Hello! Project fans,

I often asked if I am H!P fan myself. As the matter of fact, I am not (>_<)!!

Every time I got asked, I feel like, would it sound all right…..

most of the time it looks all right, so I guess it is ok (I hope!).

The LovendoR live I attended last month (May) was actually the first live I joined.

I really enjoy get to know people from other countries.

I believe this is what I was born with =D.

When I was 4th grade,

my parents house was up on the hill kind of,
so I needed to go up a long steps to get back home from school.

One day of my 4th grade year, when I finished climbing up the long stairs

and I thought

I want to become friends with all over the world.

It is funny why I thought that on that day, but I clearly remember that
I thought it at the top of the stairs (^ – ^).

So without knowing, the situation now is

pretty much the dream comes true situation for little Nozomi.

Pretty neat to think about it.

I will be kind of a long story so I will make this in several posts though,

about 8 years ago,

I made a blog on Japan named “Peep at Japanese Life?”.

Still old articles are there if you are interested in it.

Back then, I was resting at my parents house for depression.

I have had my depression since I was like 18.

Since back at the time, depression was not widely known in Japan
so I did not know what was wrong with me until I got 26 or so.

I happened to pick a book on depression at a book store and read it and found out that the thing
I was having was depression.

Fortunately I am all well know now.

I am not so sure if every one is familiar with the term “dysfunctional family”
but the family I grew up in is one of those and I got depression from the stress the family had.

I believed for a long time that my mother was not able to be happy
because of the birth of my brothers and me.

She stuck with an unhappy marriage because we were born.

I have been basically a cheerful girl, but when something happened,
I don’t thing something was such a big deal objectively, but it got me so deep and made me feel suicidal.
It was because I believed down inside that my birth was not right.

I did not realize that I felt this way until my 32 or 33, it was so deep down myself that I was not aware
that I was feeling that way myself. Might sounds a bit odd? But it was.

That thought of my birth being wrong for my mother was giving me real pain
but when I noticed it, it got all better.
Realizing that my mother being unhappy with her marriage was the choice of her lifted so much of
the burden I was carrying.

Mmmmm….. weird, it is getting somewhere else than the fun I have with associating
with people from other countries, haha! Oh well, I guess it is OK. It is about myself (^ – ^).
And I know there are people out there having the same kind of issues. Good to share I guess.

So early 30s, I encountered the most severe depression in my life and resting
without doing almost nothing.

Just sleep eat, that was about it I did. And then after a while I regained my energy
and thought to write an English blog.

And I did, and I made friends through the blog.

Unfortunately along with the major change on the platform on 20six, the blog platform
I used for blogging, many friends through the blog kind of spread away,
since the usage of the blogging became widely inconvenient.

I still have contact with some of them via facebook but lost contact with many of them. * sad *

Woooo this is getting pretty long so I will write more on the different post.

I met a guy from England through the blog

who was fan of a Japanese band “The Yellow Monkey” :).

He is one of the key person

with what I do now (helping people from other countries buy stuffs from Japan).

~~~~ To be continued ~~~~~